Someday I hope you can understand...

by LorelaiSapphire

To My Penguin,
You know that our chemistry is like nothing I have ever experienced. You know that I love you even when I don't like you. You know that I think about you no matter what decision I am making. You know that I accepted the engagement ring with the intent of being your other half, your soul mate, your best friend, your penguin....your forever. I can't explain to you what is going on in my body right now, because I don't understand it either. All I can say to you is I am sorry the surgery didn't "fix" everything we hoped it would. I'm not sure if I'm the same person that I was before. I wish I had answers to give you, but I don't. I wish I could make you understand why sometimes I burst into tears and other times I burst into laughter. But, this is the part I need you to understand, the tears are not because of anything you did or didn't do. I know you have tried being as supportive as you possibly can, and I appreciate all the little things you do for me, like going to the grocery store at midnight for my ben & jerry's craving. I just wish you would stop referring to the surgery as a "common thing". To me, it is not a common thing, it is a very big deal that will take me some time to adjust to. As much as I know you would love to, you just can't fix this. Believe me when I tell you that I am as frustrated as you are.
I love you, please be patient.