Dear David

by jp4ga

The past 10 months have been hell for us. What started out as a happy time in our lives turned into our own personal tragedy. In September after 19 years of infertility finding out we were going to have a baby without the use of fertility treatments put us into a happy shock. The look on your face in October when you heard the heart beat made me cry. The look on your face in November when they heartbeat could not be found made me cry.

You held be two days before Thanksgiving as I had a D&C. Called and cancelled our plans with family because I could not bear to be around family. Thanksgiving was going to be our big announcement day. You were there on Thanksgiving Day when your brother's wife thought it was appropriate to announce their own pregnancy when they were told we were not there because of our own miscarriage they were only 3 weeks along, the announcement could have waited.

You went to countless doctors appointments with me when the bleeding would not stop and recurring infections would not go away. You never complained and insisted that I rest and do what I needed to do to get better. You were there after the first uterine ablation, and were there in the weeks that followed when we realized it had not helped. You cried with me when we realized that a hysterectomy was the only way to fix my body.

You mourned with me on the due date of our lost child. You sat quietly while I pitched a fit because the SIL had her baby- the reminder of what we had lost- on my birthday just two weeks after our due date.

You took me to have my surgery and stayed with me from the time I was in recovery until the time I was released. Now 8 days into post-op you have never left my side for very long. You put my needs first. You have been the maid, the cook, the laundry doer, the taxi driver for the kids. You have NOT one time in 10 months complained. You have gone above and beyond with showing you love and concern for me and my well being.

Soon this horrible period in our life will be over and we will have good times in front of us. I could not have asked for a better husband and friend than you.

I love you more than words could ever say. Thank you for just being here for me without complaint.