To my love, my PJ

by slkeene1s

Dear PJ,

When we first met 2 years ago, I knew that I would be with you forever. Last year, when I was diagnosed with cervical cancer, I half expected you to take back the engagement ring and run, knowing that I was damaged goods. What a man you are taking in a single mom, who not only had a child in tow, but also college debt, stringent study times, picky as heck personality, obsessive, compulsive, and perfectionistic tendencies. You took me in to your life as the woman you love and want to spend your life with and I am so beyond grateful. You have given me a wonderful step-son, wonderful inlaws, and so much support and encouragement, whether it be an endeavour I want to pursue or an obsticle that I have to overcome. You have proved to me that love conquers all, and I hope I am proving such to you.

We are almost at our 1 year wedding anniversary and I again am facing uncertainty with my health as a new growth has presented itself on the CT, I had done on the 27th of this month. I am so nervous and rarely sleep in our bed. I can't seem to get my mind to quite reeling over the possibilities. Luckily for me, I get the homework done before I allow my mind to reel too much. However, it is not fair that you have to sleep in the bed alone for most of the night, because of my partial insomnia and now paranoia. I want you to know that I am not doing it to ignore you, I just can't help it right now, until I get my official diagnosis.

I just want you to know how much I appreciate you and how much I appreciate all that you have done for me over the past year. I know I don't tell you that often enough. I just hope that this is benign and we can go on with our life as planned. I also hope that if it is cancer again, that I will beat it again and we can have more happy and darn near perfect years together.

I love you so much and am so proud and grateful that you, my love are my husband, my friend, my everything.

I will love you always, now and forever,