Dear Husband,(where are you?)

by DreameeDarlin

Tears filled my eyes as I read other letters to husbands in appreciation for all of their love and support. I feel abandoned and hurt by your cruel thoughtless words. Though my hystercectomy was in 2002 I am facing new medical problems. I didn't like it when you told me not to let them take my last ovary. I know you don't want me to go into menapause because I'm still young, but if the doctor thinks it will help why wouldn't you want that for me? You know all of this but you seem to enjoy making me feel guilty for having to go to the doctor. You seem so angry if you must take off work if I am unable to bring the kids with me to an appointment. On the days where my pain is so bad I can barely don't offer your hand. I feel ashamed of all my health problems and scars. Sometimes I think you deserve better. My health is not good and getting worse. You don't seem to appreciate me at all. I am working 2 part time jobs and taking care of the house and the kids.....but it's never enough. Waitressing is so hard especially when I'm hurting. Why do you lay the guilt on me the way you do? Why don't you hold me and tell me everything will be okay? We have been together for almost 8 years now and sometimes I feel like I don't even know you.

Your wife