I know that you are trying to be here for me, but now is not the time to be hovering. We have been going though some rough times and I know that you want to be here for me, but I need to be looking out for myself right now.

I treasure the person that you are, now just let me morn in peace, I'll be ok. When I'm whole again in body and mind, I'll still be here. I'm not going anywhere, I just need my space to make sure that I'm making the right decision.

To be honest, I really don't want you to be at the hospital with me. My mom will be there and I have no idea what you two will talk about the whole time. A much bigger help for me would be if you plan on meeting me after. I will be in pain and may not even know if you are there. I need you when I get home. I know that I will need to be cuddled. If you are coming to the surgery just for yourself, remember that this is about me and not you.

I love you and I know that I can't make up my mind. I think that if you just told me that you loved me too, then I could deal with this all a lot better.