Dear Tim: I know I have been very hard to live with the last few months. I am sorry for not telling you sooner I was having problems again, but I know how you worry about me. I guess in my mind, if I didn't say anything, the little faries would just take it away. Well, obviously they didn't and this is where we are now. I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for standing by me through all of this. When I start crying and you hold me, you have no idea how comforting that is to me, even if it doesn't seem that way, it is. When I am in your arms I feel safe, that nothing can hurt me, that it will all be ok. You give me strength when I just want to fall apart, you keep me motivated and moving forward. Thank you for that. I am ready for this surgery but am still scared to death and heart broken. I know everything will be alright as long as you are there with me. We have made it through some tough times in the past, and this is just one more pebble in the road, right? I know the next few weeks will be hard on you, but please be patient with me and just be there to hold my hand and let me cry when I need to. I love you so very much, more than I could ever express to you. You are my soul mate, my knight is shinning armor, you are my everything. I would be lost without you. I love you to the moon and back. Summer