Honey, I'm scared

Honey, I can't begin to express to you how scared I am right now. The surgery doesn't scare me because I know I am in good hands and all will be fine once its over. I'm scared that you will be disappointed that I don't heal as quickly as you expect me to. I'm scared that you will begin to make me feel guilty for having the surgery and not being available to you. I'm scared that you will begin to see me as a burden instead of a blessing. I already feel guilty honey. I already feel guilty for the amount of time that I will need to recover. I do not want to stay in the hospital because I am scared that it will inconvenience you. I'm scared that once I am healed, you will let me know what an inconvenience this was for YOU. Please don't make me feel guilty for something that is out of my control. I'm scared of what is going to happen to me physically and I need your support. I need you to tell me that you only care about me getting better. I need you to support me, no matter how long it takes. I need you to support me just as I would support you.

I love you madly.....

Love,
Scared